Dear Readers, Another year has come and gone, and I inadvertently abandoned this “beanbrain” blog about a quarter into 2018. My apologies for that one. I hate making excuses as to why certain goals, especially my creative projects, fizzle out as the year progresses. But I’m just going to put my justifications out there. And… Read More New Year, Who Dis?: My Commitments for 2019
It’s my first Mother’s Day. And while the weekend was both low-key and eventful (main highlights: a lot of downtime at home with my three best guys and an emergency visit from the paramedics when Tadashi* had an allergic reaction to formula), it’s also given me an opportunity to reflect on motherhood in general and,… Read More Mother’s Day 2018: A Quick Ode
To all those people who’ve said that a C-section is “easy,” I have one thing to say in response: sure, I may not have pushed a baby out of my birth canal, but getting a C-section has undoubtedly been one of the most surreal and hardest experiences of my life.… Read More Getting a C-Section, Pt. 2: The Weirdest Delivery Imaginable
This past Saturday, Reggie and I took Micah on a day trip to Monterey and Carmel. Reggie had a beachside engagement shoot scheduled with a couple of clients that evening, so he asked if Micah and I wanted to spend some time together on the beach while he worked.
I happily obliged: I can never pass up an opportunity to walk barefoot in the sand.… Read More Bright Spots: Discovering the Ocean
“Still breech,” my OB-GYN exclaimed, as she glided the ultrasound probe over my belly.
It’s been two weeks since my standard 32-week prenatal checkup, where — in addition to analyzing my urine, asking about my exercise and diet, and addressing any concerns about the quickly approaching birth — my doctor checked the baby’s position. If the baby were head down, then he’d be in perfect position for childbirth. If not, then we would have to make some decisions.… Read More Getting a C-Section, Pt. 1: Breech Babies and My First Feelings of Failure as a New Mom
I woke up last Thursday morning to an Instagram direct message from my mom: an illustration of a woman cradling a newborn and sporting a slightly crescent-shaped scar across her lower belly. April is Cesarean Awareness Month, the message read.
As her daughter who delivered via cesarean section over half a year ago, my mom obviously wanted to send me a little acknowledgment and a little love.
And that message warmed my heart.… Read More Getting a C-Section, Prologue: #CesareanAwarenessMonth
I apologize for being MIA for the past couple of months. Once Tadashi got sick with the flu, Reggie and I, unfortunately, couldn’t get back into a life rhythm. So, understandably, my writing fell by the wayside. And that’s what I want to focus on in today’s blog post: that struggle for new parents to… Read More On Finding a Rhythm (or, Rather, NOT Finding a Rhythm)
Tadashi* hit an unfortunate milestone this week: his first sickness. More specifically, his first bout of the flu. Which has made for a very tumultuous past few days in the C.B. household. Looking back, it’s simultaneously funny and miraculous how we even discovered he was sick: it was because our DVR malfunctioned. For whatever reason,… Read More Dealing with a Sick Baby
All right, I did it. I not only survived my first week back at work post-maternity leave but I also somehow managed to get through the days without a single tear. True, it was a short week: I purposely asked that my return date be a Thursday to ensure as easy of a transition as… Read More On the Anxiety of Leaving My Kid for the First Time (and How Much I’ve Grown Since Then)
It’s here. After almost five and a half months of maternity leave, I’m finally returning to work. I knew that this day was going to be filled with a bunch of emotions — but, despite everyone’s warnings, I couldn’t have anticipated how intensely those emotions would hit me. Honestly, there’s a part of me that’s… Read More Returning to Work, or Why I Had an Impromptu Cry Fest in the Middle of My Kitchen